Saturday, June 26, 2010

Absolutly Terrified

Well it is finally happening. My lovely daughter has graduated high school. She leaves for college in 2 months, and i am terrified.
I wonder if this is what empty nest syndrome feels like. I am coming to realize at my age. That I have never been really alone. When my wife died. I replaced her by focusing on my kids. Now they're older an leaving. I am terrified.
This is truly my adventure. Somehow I am afraid of screwing this up. I can barely afford my rent. No college degree of my own. I was taught that a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food on the table. That was all you needed. I think somehow There was probably supposed to be more. I just missed it or chose not to go after it. I have somehow let my fear of failing overshadow everything in my life.
All I have to say is that time for a change. God tells us that he will provide. I have to have faith that he will. But only if we help as well. Not let him do all the work.
That's all for now. Will keep you updated